I won't lie. I've had a pretty easy life, emotionally speaking. However, there have been times where I thought my heart was broken. These times were mostly due to a girl.
When I found out she didn't like me I thought it was the end of the world, or at least the end of me. A week of moping later, things were pretty fine and dandy between us. Then, because we talked exclusively through facebook, when she told me she was deleting her account, I thought it was the end of the world. How would we talk? But then this thing called email happened and guess what, everything was fine and dandy. Then at one point she told me she didn't want to talk about certain things with me, that I should talk to somebody else. I thought that was horrible, how could we possibly be as close if we didn't talk about those things? But everything turned out fine and dandy.
Several other things like this happened, but every time, usually after a day or 2 of thinking things would never be the same, it all worked out. And now I realize something - those things, me liking her, talking on facebook, talking on email(face to face is much better), talking about those things...now that they're gone, our relationship is so much stronger.
My point isn't that facebook is evil or anything like that, but more that our feelings, our hearts, deceive us.
"The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it?" - Jeremiah 17:9
If I had just believed that she wasn't the girl for me, or believed that there were other ways to talk, then that would have saved me a LOT of emotional crap. Somebody told me that they couldn't make me feel anything that I didn't want to feel, and I have to admit, that's true. It's pleasurable to think that somebody made you feel bad, that it's somebody else's fault, that we have a right to feel bad. But really if we wanted to we could be happy and cheery all the way through it. I CHOSE to be depressed about those things, I had a choice. I just chose wrong.
Now yes there are some things that truly are bad. I've never experienced anything like it, but losing a family member, or even a friend, having to move away from all you know, etc. those truly are sad things. But you have to remember that at some point you'll get over it and things will be happy and good again. Here are some lyrics related to this:
"If you lose it all and it just won't feel the same, in the fight to carry on you stand and face the rain. And as you watch it fall, you learn to live again...it isn't all that bad when you're still standing in the end." - Pillar
How can we believe there is hope, yet be hopeless ourselves?
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