Broken Heart?

I won't lie. I've had a pretty easy life, emotionally speaking. However, there have been times where I thought my heart was broken. These times were mostly due to a girl.

When I found out she didn't like me I thought it was the end of the world, or at least the end of me. A week of moping later, things were pretty fine and dandy between us. Then, because we talked exclusively through facebook, when she told me she was deleting her account, I thought it was the end of the world. How would we talk? But then this thing called email happened and guess what, everything was fine and dandy. Then at one point she told me she didn't want to talk about certain things with me, that I should talk to somebody else. I thought that was horrible, how could we possibly be as close if we didn't talk about those things? But everything turned out fine and dandy.

Several other things like this happened, but every time, usually after a day or 2 of thinking things would never be the same, it all worked out. And now I realize something - those things, me liking her, talking on facebook, talking on email(face to face is much better), talking about those things...now that they're gone, our relationship is so much stronger.

My point isn't that facebook is evil or anything like that, but more that our feelings, our hearts, deceive us.

"The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it?" - Jeremiah 17:9

If I had just believed that she wasn't the girl for me, or believed that there were other ways to talk, then that would have saved me a LOT of emotional crap. Somebody told me that they couldn't make me feel anything that I didn't want to feel, and I have to admit, that's true. It's pleasurable to think that somebody made you feel bad, that it's somebody else's fault, that we have a right to feel bad. But really if we wanted to we could be happy and cheery all the way through it. I CHOSE to be depressed about those things, I had a choice. I just chose wrong.

Now yes there are some things that truly are bad. I've never experienced anything like it, but losing a family member, or even a friend, having to move away from all you know, etc. those truly are sad things. But you have to remember that at some point you'll get over it and things will be happy and good again. Here are some lyrics related to this:

"If you lose it all and it just won't feel the same, in the fight to carry on you stand and face the rain. And as you watch it fall, you learn to live again...it isn't all that bad when you're still standing in the end." - Pillar

How can we believe there is hope, yet be hopeless ourselves?

Revelation 3(Part)

 God had me read this this morning when I woke up. Verse 8 means a lot to me...Thought maybe I should share this message of hope.

“To the angel of the church in Philadelphia write:
   These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. ⁸ I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name. ⁹ I will make those who are of the synagogue of Satan, who claim to be Jews though they are not, but are liars—I will make them come and fall down at your feet and acknowledge that I have loved you. ¹⁰ Since you have kept my command to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the hour of trial that is going to come on the whole world to test the inhabitants of the earth.
   ¹¹ I am coming soon. Hold on to what you have, so that no one will take your crown. ¹² The one who is victorious I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will they leave it. I will write on them the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on them my new name. ¹³ Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.